Showing posts with label Religion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Religion. Show all posts

4.03.2012

i-da-ho...

General Conference included a trip to a real home. 
Not an apartment...
A home... with real-size bathrooms,
and parents who believe college kids should not pay for food, 
and real mom-cooked meals, 
and candy bowls, 
and in the house were real-sized beds, 
and everything was clean.

We slept. 
and we ate.
and we ate.
and we ate.
then we slept.

Photobucket

Photobucket

Photobucket

Photobucket

We played with the six year old sister, 
and took a stop in mama's hometown on our way back. 
Burley: where the only thing that blows harder than the town is the wind.
That was rude- I secretly love that dinky town.
I love it for giving me my senior prom dress,
and three weeks of bonding time with mama while grandma was sick, 
and bonding time with grandpa.. when he wouldn't stand for any grandchild to be there but me.
I love Burley for making me cry the hot, embarrassing kind of tears,
for making me cry in front of a boy for the first and only time.
I love it for the Snake River,
and being serenaded by that boy on its banks.
I love it for the dinky movie theater, 
and awesome cinnamon rolls.
I love it for the nursing home, 
and the people who loved grandma as she passed from one side to another.
From the outside, she had been gone for a long time,
but she was still my mama's mama.

I'll never want to lose my mama. 
Never never. 
But when I do, I hope my kids are old enough to understand that no matter who she is then,
She was mine. She rocked me to sleep [when I let her].
She cooked for me, and cleaned up after me.
She taught me how to figure me out.
And when I cry hot tears when she's gone,
I hope they understand.

And maybe that's when they'll be forced to sit in my dinky hometown for three weeks.
And maybe, maybe, they'll like it too.

Love Always, 
Taylor Ann

3.27.2012

Because my dad thinks my blog is deep....

Today we had an interesting discussion in our Doctrine and Covenants class
[for those not familiar with Mormon lingo... it's a religion class]

God uses an interesting phrase in the passage we were discussing: "it mattereth not to me"
Oh, if I had only learned this concept long before I did.
I think sometimes we want direct guidance.
Shoot, I want it all the time.

[pick this major]
[date this person]
[marry this person *fireworks. duh*]
[do this internship]
[take this job]
[live in this place]

yeah, I'm a big fan of involving God in your decisions, don't get me wrong there...
but He also loves us and sometimes, if it "matters not" to him, he wants us to choose whatever makes us happy.
He will not direct our every paths. 

so if it seems right, and feels right.
and you are using your judgement
and you go about it all with a thankful heart....

make a decision. and do what makes you happy.
sometimes it's ok to receive the absence of an answer.

And now, I will attach an absolutely fabulous old favorite.
Because you will love it.
And if not-listen again.
Then reconsider our friendship.




Love Always,
And learning how to make decisions,
Taylor Ann